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Finding my way on this Journey

Month: November 2014

Lord of all creation
Of water, earth and sky
The heavens are your tabernacle
Glory to the Lord on high

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your Majesty
You are holy, holy

Lord of Heaven and earth
Lord of Heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
As I stumble in the darkness
I will call Your name by night

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your Majesty
You are holy, holy

Lord of Heaven and earth
You’re the Lord of Heaven and earth

Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth
Hallelujah

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, so holy
The universe declares Your Majesty
You are holy, holy

Oh, God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your Majesty
You are holy, holy

Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and earth
Hallelujah

Repentance

Today’s post is by a very special Sister & friend. Her name is Victoria Morgan. Through trials, Victoria is allowing Yahweh to show Himself strong in her life through the Holy Ghost power.  Read the post below to get a glimpse of her life changing moment.

So over the course of the last week I’ve been praying a lot more often. My sleep has been interrupted by weird dreams (my dad pulling a gun out on me)…among others. So I’ve been praying for God to heal my mind, my heart and have been having prayers where I’m simply telling him thank you.

The other night while praying a prayer of protection over myself, kids, family, friends…..it dawned on me that I had never truly repented for any of the crazy stuff I had done. I mean none of it. I’d often prayed that God would spare me the consequences of the matter, and all of it I had completely turned from, but I never really said “God I’m sorry, forgive me.” So I found myself laying in bed just going down the list of situations that I’d involved myself in and just telling God I’m sorry for hurting you, disobeying you and I vow to never do that/that/this again…. I desire to please you in every way…..please forgive me. When I say that has been the most refreshing time I’ve spent in prayer.

And I’m just watching as the days progress that he’s given me a spirit of peace. Trust me there have been those that have tried to rise up and disrupt that and I’ve had to completely cut the cord on some relationships…..but I feel like through that prayer I’ve gained more trust in just doing when God says do……and not say when he says not to….. it’s unfortunate that it took me so long to realize this, but I’m glad that he gave me the time and opportunity to do so.

-Victoria Morgan

 

Song of the Week: “The Gift” by Donald Lawrence

The gift it looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you

The systems of the world
Try to take your confidence
But these systems were designed to make you doubt what heaven sent

The systems of the world
Will try to take your confidence
But these systems were designed to make you sit down on your gift

But the gift God gave to you, give it back to Him
When He sees it operating, it’s a compliment to Him
But the gift God gave to you, give it back to Him
For the gift it will make room, position, for great men to see you

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
It looks good

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
And you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

The systems of the world
Try to take your confidence
But these systems were designed to make you doubt what heaven sent

The systems of the world
Will try to take your confidence
But these systems were designed to make you sit down on your gift

But the gift God gave to you, give it back to Him
When He sees it operating, it’s a compliment to Him
But the gift God gave to you, give it back to Him
For the gift it will make room, position, for great men to see you

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
It looks good

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
And you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

You wear it well, you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

You wear it well

It looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
It looks good

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
And you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

It looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
It looks good

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
And you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

It looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good on you
It looks good

The gift it looks good on you
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
And you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

God has graced you and you wear it well

It looks good on you
It looks good
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
It looks good on you
The gift it looks good
And you wear it well
God has graced you and you wear it well

The gift it looks good

 

Humble

Humble…what does this truly mean?  Audrey Assad’s song by the same name puts it into wonderful words that inspire me to remember that all that I go through pales in comparison to what our Savior endured.  I’ve had an emotionally and psychologically rough couple of days. Previously I had become accustomed to working with positive people who want to get the job done, but don’t stoop to the level of whispering and gossiping behind the backs of others, per se.

Sitting here, listening to the whispering and knowing that it is sometimes about me is very difficult to deal with. There’s a part of me that thinks “how can you be so vain as to think that others would spend their time talking about you?” Then there’s another part that says “don’t be weary in well-doing…surely you must be doing something right if others are talking about you…there are different ways to do everything.” Then there are times that I just don’t know what to think. I’ve been earnestly making an effort to seek after God more this week, especially to see where I am falling short. I let my issue go for the moment and it all begins to make sense as I listen to Audrey sing…

Not too proud to wear our skin
To know this weary world we’re in
Humble, humble Jesus

Not too proud to bear our sin
To feel this brokenness we’re in
Humble, humble Jesus

Surely if Christ could endure a scourging with whips, be spat upon, and receive a crown of thorns placed on his head and not retaliate because of these physical adversities, how much more are we to do the same? He also endured emotional grief having lost his friend (yet having him raised to life again), having one of his closest disciple friends to turn against him in disbelief, being betrayed by one of his close followers, having many discount his true identity, being talked about, being accused of doing what seemed wrong (to the human eye & mind)….the list goes on. As I type this, I am just overwhelmed. Yes, I’ve had to endure similar trials, of course not to the extent that Christ did, but it just increases my faith and my praise and further confirms the truth of the Word. “For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin (Heb. 4:15).” Amazing. Simply amazing and…humbling.

I thank God for this trial because I see that it is a test and I can see how far I have come from the first few times that I have had to deal with this issue. Although it bothers my flesh, I can remember to walk in humility like Christ and be the light that he so desires me to be.

Surely you have dealt with difficult trials? How did you overcome?

Spirit of Jealousy

Definition of Jealous:

Adjective

  1. Feeling resentment against someone because of that person’s rivalry, success, or advantages (often followed by of): He was jealous of his rich brother.
  2. Feeling resentment because of another’s success, advantage, etc. (often followed by of): He was jealous of his brother’s wealth.
  3. Characterized by or proceeding from suspicious fears or envious resentment: a jealous rage; jealous intrigues.
  4. Inclined to or troubled by suspicions or fears of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims: a jealous husband.
  5. Solicitous or vigilant in maintaining or guarding something: The American people are jealous of their freedom.
  6. Bible. Intolerant of unfaithfulness or rivalry: The Lord is a jealous God.

At 6 years of age, my 1st grade teacher asked the class to draw out their future. On my paper I had myself being a nurse right after college at the age of 21 and married to my college sweetheart with 2 children by 30 years of age. Mrs. Flowers gave me an “A” on my paper. I was so excited and I knew from that point on, that would be my story!

My life has not turned out like I planned. As a matter of fact, nothing in the above paragraph has happen like I wrote 27 years ago. That really sucks.   A lot of others wrote their dreams and visions out like I did, and it has come to pass for them. When I see others living the dream I wrote down, I get jealous. That’s correct. I get jealous and I am JEALOUS! This feeling is not great. Sometimes I get deeply saddened because I have this feeling.

When I talk to some of my close people about my feelings, they always state, “your time is coming”, “your blessing is on the way”, “it’ll come when you least expect it”, or how about this one, “don’t rush it and enjoy the single life”. Really, don’t rush it! You have what you want, but tell me don’t rush it. I hate those statements to the fullest!

See, it started when I was little. I was teased for having bucked, stained teeth, and that caused me to be jealous of those who had white, straight teeth. As I got older (in middle and high school), it seemed everyone had someone. Well, nope, not me. Then I got in my twenties, and all my sister-friends were getting into committed relationships, getting married, and/or having children. Now I’m in my thirties and I still don’t have any of that. So at times, I found my jealously building up within me. I would magnify situations when someone else would get what I wanted and prayed for. I did not want the material things or anyone’s spiritual gifts; I want the companionship with a Godly man, the courting and dating each other, the love, the children, happiness that comes with being in a fulfilling relationship. But so far, I don’t have any of that. I thought moving from Cincinnati to the DMV area would increase my chances of finding that “someone” & I found that to be wrong. Needless to say, my jealousy was turning into sadness! My hope was dwindling.

Then one day it took my 6 year old nephew to get me in check. My nephew and Mother called to say good morning and Mother began telling me what he said before they got up to start their day, “Granny, before we get up we need to pray. We need to say to God, Thank you Lord for my eyes to see, my hands to feel and touch, my legs and feet to walk, and thank you Lord for letting me see another day.”

WOW! He did not know how that touched my soul. Here I am being jealous and sad of the things I don’t have, just to be smacked in my face with a prayer of the things I do have. That’s when I started to realize the meaning of the scripture in 1 Corinthians 7:34:

34 There is difference also between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit:

My focus as off. My cares were not totally in sync with the Father’s will. I was allowing the spirit of jealousy to overtake the holiness that I should have been exhibiting. The Lord was keeping my body, but I would not allow Him to have my full attention: mind, body, & soul. Since that day, I really have been grateful and thankful for all that He has kept me from, instead of being jealous of what I don’t have. I can stand with my head up and tell you that I’ve been delivered from jealousy. I do face reminders of the things I don’t have at this present moment daily, but I allow my thankfulness and gratefulness overpower the jealousy that tries to arise.

Can you be honest and let me know if you’ve experienced jealousy? Have you been delivered? If so, what was said or what happened to kill that spirit of jealousy out of your life?

Jasmyne Jackson

Happy Monday everyone! If you’ve had a trying few weeks or days or even if you need the occasional reminder, remember that God is with you and greater is he that is in you than he that is in the world! Have a great week.

 

 

Bring your tired
Bring your shame
Bring your guilt
Bring your pain
Don’t you know that’s not you’re name
You will always be much more to me

Every day I wrestle with the voices
That keep telling me I’m not right
But that’s alright

‘Cause I hear a voice and He calls me redeemed
When others say I’ll never be enough
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world
In the world
In the world
And greater is the One living inside of me
Than he who is living in the world

Bring your doubts
Bring your fears
Bring your hurt
Bring your tears
There’ll be no condemnation here
You are holy, righteous and redeemed

Every time I fall
There’ll be those who will call me
A mistake
Well that’s ok

There’ll be days I lose the battle
Grace says that it doesn’t matter
‘Cause the cross already won the war
He’s Greater
He’s Greater

I am learning to run freely
Understanding just how He sees me
And it makes me love Him more and more
He’s Greater
He’s Greater

Put Him First & Believe He’s Got This

As I am being transparent in my journey to 33, I wanted to share that I’ve been dealing with how to trust and follow the leader when I don’t see the plan or the blueprint. I know what the end is going to be, but the construction work that has to take place to get there & when I do not have a physical map to show me the way….MAN, it got hard for me to let go and follow! So, this morning I want to share a little piece of me; an exercise I did this morning to help me learn to trust & follow without seeing. I think this is called submitting. Yeah, maybe, perhaps…LOL!

This morning on July 29th, I got up early to catch the commuter bus to work. I intended to be on the 6:09am bus and I expected the bus to get me to work at 7:00am. That’s my plan, right? Well, I got on the bus at the expected time. So far my day is moving forward and “YAY!” I’m going to be at work like I expected at 7:00am. I know this bus driver and I know the way he takes to get to work every time I ride with him. I know his route so well, I can close my eyes and I can tell you actually where we are on the route to DC from Maryland; that’s how comfortable I am with him and how well my senses are. Get that?  It may sound weird, but I can do it. So I get comfortable in my seat, turn on Tune-In Radio, and put my sunglasses on. Now I’m comfortable; so I closed my eyes and began to mediate and think. As the man is driving the bus, he comes to a sudden stop! I open my eyes to see where our location is because I knew we weren’t far enough in the journey to meet the traffic jams that are along the way. I was right! It’s 6:21am; I started to panic and realized my plans will not work-out like I wanted them to if I don’t make it to work at 7:00am. “NO, NO, NO” is what I’m screaming in my head, but then the calmness tells me to get back comfortable and trust me. So I sit back, closed my eyes, and listen to the voice say, “I have you”. So I DECIDED to do this exercise with myself. I said to myself, “Do not open your eyes until you’re near your bus stop and go by the sensory around you to trust that where this bus driver is taking you, you’ll get to work”. Let me tell you, it was difficult!! So many sudden stops (possibly due to traffic…not sure because my eyes were closed), seems like we had MANY, MANY, MANY more curves & turns in the route that were not familiar to me, & I felt like the “red lights” were out to get us. I tell you, the route this man took this morning, I WAS NOT FAMILIAR with it. I started to open my eyes because I was starting not to trust the driver. I felt frustration boiling up. I was getting anxious and started to open my eyes. Then the voice says, “Trust me”. Ugh, really. Again, the calmness came upon me. At this point, I felt my sensory game was so off and I didn’t care. I just wanted to be at work SAFELY and in one piece! 7:00am was not my priority anymore. So I guess you know where I’m going with this right? The small & calming voice was not telling me this for just any reason. The Father was speaking to me about life and MY LIFE in that case!

This is how the story ended with getting to work: At some point in the journey to work, I stopped trying to figure out where we were and where and which way we were going. It got to be annoying and a bit stressful because with my eyes closed I couldn’t see my way. I just sat back and started to really enjoy the ride and thank God that His angels were ahead of me and making sure that no hurt, harm or danger comes my way. Suddenly, I felt the bus driver take a familiar turn onto the 12th Street Bridge. How did I know? My senses told me by the noise under the bridge, the way my body shifted when making that turn under the bridge, the sound the bus makes when it goes through the tunnel. That’s my senses working for me…LOL! Almost to that PROMISING END!! Now, I’m thinking, “I’m only 6 minutes from work with 2 stops ahead of mines. There’s always traffic here so that’s going to add another 5 minutes. I don’t know the time on the clock, but that’s cool, because I’m at least in downtown DC not in Maryland traffic”. Yes, I can analyze some things (LOL). But I felt us coasting! No stopping. I’m shocked!!! I’m almost to work and YAY and YAY, but then another sudden STOP; like pressing down really hard on the brakes stop, trying to break my neck stop. REALLY??? I’m at the FINISH POINT, so why now? But of course, there has to be a BUMP right before the PROMISE! Did I worry…NOPE, I was too close. Then we started coasting again. Then the driver says, “Metro Center” turns on the overhead lights and lets the passengers off. As he started to pull away I realized that this WHOLE time ALL I had to do was trust and follow. Once I submitted to HIS voice, I didn’t worry about how long the journey to work would be. My priority was getting there through all the turns, stops, distractions that came upon us. As he pulled up to my stop to let me off, I said, “thank you and have a GREAT DAY” and his response was, “YOU DO THE SAME”!

As you can see, I made it to work, but not by my time. I stepped in the door at 7:06am. I didn’t care though. I felt that was the time I was to be there in the first place!

I hope you enjoyed my testimony! I’m doing better daily putting GOD First and letting HIM lead my way when I do not have the plan or blueprint, but I see/feel the reward! Submitting to HIM is going to take me to new heights that I did not know I could achieve!

Much Love,

Jasmyne J. (Jazzi J or Jazz or J or Bubbly…LOL!)

Hebrews 11:1 New Living Translation (NLT)

11 Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.

Hebrews 11:1 KJV

11 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

**This writing was written in July 2014.  It’s a testimony that I’m still trying to abide in and trust in throughout this journey.

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